How To Discontinue Painkillers

I am not a healthcare professional. I am not a doctor.  I am an addict who has experienced multiple withdrawals from painkillers.  Remember this fact as you read through the article: The end is near.  You have already experienced this inkling, maybe a desperate thought that is now coming to you more and more.  The end means that your supply and use must end.  It means that you are taking more to get the same sensation that you had when it was first introduced to you.  This progressive stoppage is for all who are using painkillers, whether you want to stop now or not. What is important is that you know that you are not alone and that the end is near and that anyone can get free from it.  There is going to be some not-so-happy days.  Expect this, it is very normal.  There is going to be some depression, but we must try to limit the severity of what I call, "The Crushing Chest."  Here is how to stop taking painkillers (reprise):

1. Tell someone what you would like to do, that you want to quit and that you need help.  Choose your doctor, a trusted friend, a priest or a family member.  This will open a positive gate for you and will give you someone you can talk to.  You must talk. 

2. Tell your doctor you think you have a problem and you need help getting off of it.  You need a reduction plan that is slow and systematic. Expect a withdrawal period. Do not take this personally, it is just the drugs leaving your body.  You body will defend abrupt changes because it has been fed at the receptor sites and has adjusted to the level of drugs it has been given. The longer you used, the longer it will take to get off.  You can get free of any time period. The higher you have been the lower you must go, but freedom is real, I know. 

3. Do Not Stop Abruptly, it is not worth it and will make it harder to discontinue the drug.  If you are at the end of your prescription and do not have refills, this is the magical time to tell your doctor. They will understand.  Don't play God.  You will probably not be able to quit on your own.  Slowly ease your intake even if someone has to call you out.  This is for your own good. This will also prevent The Crushing Chest.

4.  You may need treatment if your use has been for a long period of time. Do it.  My visit to rehab saved my life and the recovery gave me the tools to live by and respond positively if I had withdrawal symptoms.

5.  Water, water, water.  This flushes the system.

6.  Hot baths and showers.  Yes they work.  You cannot take too many.

7. Walk, walk, and walk.  This helps to clear the cobwebs.  It also helps flush the system and creates positive and healthy feeling vibes that are natural and recondition the body and mind.  Get out of bed and off the couch.  Be willing to take small and smaller steps, don't rush.

8. Your addiction is a prideful state which, however, you are not responsible for.  Your asking for help and following the suggestions, is. 

Spiritual Towers

"You dilengently study the scriptures because you think by them you have eternal life. These are the scriptures that testify about me, yet you refuse to come to me to have life." If you would see how easily the evil one pulls down the spiritual towers you have made for yourself, then you would know: You can do nothing by yourself and this also can be added: You can do nothing for yourself. Dare you go deeper? r

Pissing On Today

Have you noticed how your ego, that self that you logically and mechanically live from, cannot llive in the present? It wants to, but it can't. Do you see how it leads you away? It leads you to yesterday (the way things used to be) or tomorrow (things that could be or revisited). It is good at dreaming and hoping, but it cannot live in right now. It lives just outside (to the split second) of before and after. No wonder we are so messed up. We are constantly dreaming and hoping for a state we never, ever allow ourselves to visit. HMMMMM.... r

In Justice There's None

Be careful in what Truth you feel you should pass on. You might not be able to handle their persecution. If this Truth you think you have is justified or real, why do you feel somebody else should have or hear it? Why would a person in Truth, subject themselves to the possibility of something that is not of it? it could only be for the sake of argument or padding the identity to be right. It is because they are not in Truth, they are residing in their ego self disguised as being helpful or purposeful and have not, as yet, fully understood it's meaning. Enough of this nonsense. You still fear the idea that you are alone, don't you? Trudge carefully. Leave people alone and find your own way.

Cycling

As I come in from a hard ride, there is a chair outside my front door. I lean my bike against a tree and I sit. As the endorphins rush in to greet me, I am very comfortable with my efforts. I am thankful for the wonderful opportunity to which I have been given. The endorphins leave and I lay exhausted. The body is at rest and the mind rejuvenated, but there is something else. There is a moment of connection. There is a point to which I am connected with the One, wonderful universe. I know and see the one life and I am truly with myself.

ta boot

"...kicking around on a piece of ground in your home town, waiting for something or someone to show you the way..." Time - Pink Floyd

Martha or Mary?

"If anyone would come after me, he must deny himself, pick his cross daily and follow me." Not like Martha, but like Mary, leave it at, "Me." Take nothing with you today, just leave the field empty. If you do, you will be crying by morning.

10 eyes

How is it, that in life, I am separate from God, but in death, I am joined with God? I am not buying what they are selling. The ideas of man are only creating divisions in me. If I believe I am with God, then who and what are these different selves. What is this "I" that wants to be separate? If I am with, what can be or what is, against? My ideas, whether bought or learned, must be wrong. I should turn in early, I am tired of listening to I.

Michael Buffer

If we are still fighting life, it is because we are not sufficiently tired of fighting. We have to get tired of fighting, but with an intelligent understanding of it's futility (uselessness) not with a feeling of despondency (hopelessness).

Vernon Howard 'Esoteric Mind Power'

Les Miserables

If I say, "I am miserable," then I am referring to the "i" that knows misery. Along with misery, it also knows excitement, depression, anxiety and worry. It secretly craves it, unaware of the opposite results. As long as I live from this small "i," I will always be at the mercy of it's pendulum swings. These are the opposites of desire and passion, approval and purpose. Since I have lived in this old and familiar state, time and time again, I will ask the same question again and again, "Where did all my joy go?" I have seen this experience many times. It is especially true after the heights of some "spiritual" experience, which always plummet the very next day. My mind may have thought it understood, but it didn't. It was only giving itself it's only known anecdote for pain, a created and conditioned tourniquet. I may blunder a thousand more times with this, but if I am careful to proceed more slowly and unafraid, if I see that I have not as yet understood, then I can now safely move towards a deeper understanding without the familiar guilt, judgement, loss or condemnation, that always seems to follow.

Upon Further Review

I cannot write too much. I cannot review and go over my life enough. I cannot seek forgiveness too often. Living in my past is not the intent, or is it? Am I still being badgered by something familiar or have I just learned to run faster, to be a better magician? The amount of pain in my life seems to be equal to the amount of deception that continues to stir up echoes. I see much deeper questions: Am I still desiring my father's approval? Do I live my life seeking the approval of others? Is there still present, a significant other, that I desire to hear that what I have done or that what I am doing is good or is being smiled upon? Is this what motivates me? Is this my secret inspiration? Have I not yet learned that I am okay and have I not yet learned to approve myself (to forgive myself)? Odd as it may seem, when there is a "good job" spoken, or a "its beautiful" mentioned, there is no inward satisfaction or contentment. Yet, I continue to tip toe around, working and living in secret from others and verbally lying about great things I have done or can do, all so that I may set-up and reject commendation from the one's I desire approval. There is anger and resentment present. This is what darkness can do. This is what my false nature does. If I knew I could view my inner world in complete safety, there would be no roadblocks from guilt. There would be no smokescreens of judgement or slashes of condemnation. If I could just hold out long enough these angry, bashing and constant waves may dissipate, but as long as I refrain from seeing them, as long as I continue to hold out without standing up and seeing them for what they really are, their attacks will never relinquish. I see that the need for approval is a sick hoax. Today, I will make something beautiful, take a step back, smile and then move on.

Cascade

If you think we are all the same, try loading a dishwasher with another person.

Time Table

So you think wisdom and age are the same thing? If you wait until you get old to gain wisdom, there are things that will begin to occur that influence your receptivity. Solomon said not to wait, because you may not see so well, walk so well or hear so well. It is already much steeper than you think, so imagine not having all of your faculties. When the faculties wither, what will you do then? I know what you will do. You will call on God to provide energy or understanding to keep you afloat. He will not, because Truth is not your ideas, your thoughts or your body. You can thank HIM for being something higher. You do not consider this, do you? You think you will live forever. You think you are your body, your thoughts and your ideas, but the body will fade, thought will increase and your ideas will be of no more use. Christ's words are eternal. Your ideas about Christ's words are finite. Seek the things that cannot fade and begin to live from that. Start now!

Post Up

"In the world but not of it," does not mean I am are not in the world. I occupy both time and eternity. Where am I facing and where I see myself is an acknowledgement of this consciousness.

Texas Wild Fires

If a man walks into a fire, thinking God will put it out, he will most likely get burned by it. The "good self" cannot reform the "bad self", (Vernon Howard). I need not continue to face the fire. Darkness demands that I live in conflict, suggesting that my philosophies and opinions make me unique. That I must personalize with my strife, and fight, to rise above it or separate myself from people, in other words, to "fix" the tension. This is what a sick, secret society does. Cannot I not turn my back to it, all of it? Darkness wants to get me cornered. When I try to create a mental truth, I am unconsciously, separating myself from oneness with what is good. I am learning that the bad self is an isolated, secret self. A self which totally operates within the boundaries of the mind. It's life spring is not life, but a constantly streaming film of mental images to which I personalize. It fuels illusions. There is no basis for what it does. It is not connected to anything. I turn myself over to it constantly, fueling more fire. Subsequently, all my relationships are based on this process: The need to be right, to be desirable, yet different. It is impossible to be above and with at the same time. Can I not see these conversations? The good self cannot reform the bad self. What direction must I turn? I don't know, but I must look at the direction I am facing and ask myself: Am I getting burned?

Guilt

Guilt is an illusion of not being. Whenever I feel guilty, it is because something has bumped into a memory. Something has re-occurred. It is not new and needs a neutral investigation (especially if I have sensed this illness before) on my part. I have created a sensation or feeling and that feeling is entirely based on a memory, past experience, previous response or ideation as to what I think, or others think, I need to be. I am in conflict. It is a condition that has originated in my mind and it can, and usually, involves others. I have allowed a philosophy or doctrine, about whatever, to lead into an imaginary world of white houses and white picket fences. My response to this phenomena is negative. I act because, inwardly, I feel inadequate. Do others try to create this way of life in me? Absolutely, because man is evil. Man is not to blame because he is asleep. No one is to blame, because that starts it all over again. I cannot blame myself or point a finger, either. Am I to live according to their principles? Absolutely not, but I don't see that I do. I am asleep. I hand myself over every time and it is the motivator in everything I do and I resent it deeply. That is obvious because I am not happy. What about my body? What about desire and passion? What about those identifications with what I think I should be? It is all relative and I should look at this pattern. I must break off these relationships. It is hard to do if I am constantly fed the food of artificial stimulation. In other words, my identifications are joined not with who I am, but with who I think I should be. Try to see this.

Best Prayer

I want to be different. Help me.

Marinating

It is better to work with a principle for a few days, then to constantly hammer away at daily insights.

Ride Like The Wind

So you are sitting there and don't know what to do. Your body does not have the want to entertain this mental energy. Close your eyes. Take a deep and purposeful breath. Watch closely your mental thoughts, see the images as they race across the screen. Let those pictures of you, and even me, flow past. Listen. Let things settle down. Relax your body. Let it go. If you see images, that were of some previous importance, let those go too. Clear the mechanism. There is a different energy here. A positive one that does not need your guidance. Let it take hold of you, now, without thought. Breathe deeply and relax. "The wind blows where it may. You hear it's sound, but you do not know the direction it comes from or where it is going. So it is with those born of the spirit." It is okay to get up now. Open your eyes. You may proceed, but notice where you are and what you are doing. Don't rush. Take it all in, casually. Know that you breathe, that you walk, that you sit and that you eat.