Post Pardon

I have approached a realization about myself,
and it comes in questions.
Why must there always be something wrong?
Either everything is real, or nothing is real,
Whether that be true or untrue, why must I concern myself with it?
What great evil power am I at the mercy of?
What is wrong with leaving myself alone, and
just leaving the questions blank?
What if God doesn't condemn?
What if there is no sin?
Why are drugs taken for conditions?
Why can't I just exist as Myself?