The 3rd I

I see that you did not get what you thought you had coming to you. I believe that what you expected may even have been hinted to you, earlier. And now, because of your loss, you are having thoughts of spite and getting even. You are angered by the lack of your promised success. You are hurt and now you are structuring a pre-emptied strike against the undelivered gift host. Your are now uneasy, restless and scurrying about with your imagined purposeful intent. It is not purposeful, it is programmed. It is an attack against the host, but you do not see it, because the host is you and for a brief moment, I thought I was you. Blessings, r

Congestion

There will be times, along the way, where I seem to be drifting. Wandering around searching for that inspiration that I so, consciously, worked for in the past. The most important thing for me is that I can handle as much truth that is available, until I run away. I can run as far and as fast as I can, but Truth never wavers. It graciously and lovingly awaits my return. I always seem to return in my own cognisance. I rebel against everything that is not the apparent truth to me. I twist and contort truth mind pictures until I see that it is not going to fit, then finally when nothing else works, I let go. It is in these times of congestion that the dawn of truth beckons me. I must first and foremost, slow down. A lot can be found in slowing the mind down. Congestion is marked by the speed in which my mind travels. My conscious efforts to bring it to an abrupt halt are necessary and make way for the upward new. It all goes back to, and centers around, Now. The precious present moment. It is okay to stop and step back. It is okay to start over if I have found myself lost or confused. It is okay to start over, right now. Who needs to know? My only life need only be unique to me. blessings, r

IFC Challenge: Need verses Want

What I want carries carries no value. What I need has no depreciation. The apostle Paul once wrote, "I can do all things through Christ, which strengthens me." Let me see something here, first. Before I go creating a picture in my mind of what Christ is or should be, which would be both logical and mechanical in orientation, let me first see what Christ isn't.
Christ is NOT: Fear, Worry, Pride, Vanity, Wants, Desires, Selfishness, Defense, Greed, Procrastination, etc... So before calling on the angels, I should first look to see what is really causing my disruption, (which, in fact, is the same thing). Ah, Alas! I see that sneaky little demon. What I wanted was NOT Christ, but what I needed was and is God or Christ (same thing) who provides me with everything that IS necessary. I must do the work. I must let the Absolute, who rules my heart, do what he does and see that my wants only get in the way and prevent the awareness of that beautiful fact. Incidentally, if you are not convinced of this, take your most valuable possession down to the local pawn shop. You can then see how the angels play. Blessings, r

"Learn to love the things that make you the most uncomfortable. If you decide to end your burdensome ways, it is about time." Vernon Howard

I am the Universe

I used to think that being alone was supposed to be uncomfortable. Then my selfishness protected my drug addiction by not wanting to share me with the world. I then got into recovery and they shouted that isolation was a trigger for relapse, hmmm... Then I read the words of Christ who told me the kingdom of heaven was within. If that is so, and it be my aim, then how else would I find this kingdom if not alone by myself guided by an unstructured inquiry? A finding that must originate in the quietest void of my heart that connects to the omniscient spirit and guiding energy of the universe. How could it be different, if not the same? Yeng and Yang, right and wrong, black and white, be done with that sorting. Truth can only be truth, not invented, but discovered. It can be described but not defined. If used rightly and correctly, a man alone, focusing on the wordless voice of his heart (not his babbling,wordful, instruction seeking mind), would be as powerful and could do more than the greatest army on earth. Go to superwisdom.com, today, to get more insight to the Tao de Ching. Follow the instructions of this wonderful podcast. blessings, r

Hmmmm...

"POWERFUL PLAN

Use this simple but powerful weapon for defeating the devil.
What Satan loves, you must unlove. The devil loves brooding
depression and senseless schemes. Unlove these. Satan sends
out hideous thoughts about hurting and conquering people.
Unlove such ideas when they try to enter your mind. Simply
love the opposite of what the devil loves. You will feel
the opposite of anguish, which is peace and intelligence."

SOLVED The Mystery of Life, p. 197

Enjoy the applied. Blessings, r

Change

Change can never take anything good and right from me. It can only add, if I will let it.

"When a resolution turns us in a new direction, so much genuine good flows from daring to feel uncomfortable, or wrong, or whatever you want to call it, perhaps even for days or weeks. Knowing in advance this is going to happen, and even intensify as you continue to make your stand, is the great secret of change." Tom Russell

Blessings, r

Nursery Rhyme

God, please take care of me today because I can't.
Honestly, I don't know how.
My very best thinking got me into a treatment center,
for drugs, anxiety, depression, isolation and loneliness.
They follow me wherever I go.
Show me today how to forget about myself and
what, how and where you want me to be.
Carry me through myself.
You know that I believe in you, but
my beliefs are limited and are only mechanical, at best.
Could you show me how to know myself,
without worrying about how to do it?
Encourage me to let go,
and to not get so emotional when I do so.
If I should happen to get a brief glimpse of your love for me today,
that would be greater than anything I could do on my own.

"Now I lay me down to SLEEP,
I pray the Lord my soul to keep
If I should die before I AWAKE,
I pray the Lord my soul to take."

Blessings, r

The Toothbrush Test

Everyday I brush my teeth in the shower, in the morning. I use a sonic care toothbrush. It is electronic and operates in four (4) 30 seconds cycles. Each cycle ends with a slight pause, before the next cycle begins. If you have such a toothbrush try this test. Begin the 1st cycle on the lower back teeth. When the 2nd cycle starts, move to your front lower teeth The 3rd cycle will be the back top and the 4th will be the front top. As you begin, focus on what you are doing through all the cycles until all your teeth are brushed. I doubt you will be able to do it the first time. Why you say? You will forget what cycle and what area of your teeth you should be at, because you will allow your mind to wander off. You will begin worrying about your day, you will delve into the NEXT moment or you could be thinking about what self help topic you may need to read or have just read. It can be a thousand different things and because of it you have gone to sleep. Oh, you're awake physically, but you are mentally asleep. Try the toothbrush test. It only takes 2 minutes. When you finally come to that time when you have devoted your focus to all cycles and all teeth, you may now begin your day. Now approach the next few moments doing the same thing. Be aware of what your doing. Just stop and pay attention. Be aware of your presence and it's relationship to everything. Be on the alert for those passing cloud thoughts that want to interfere, just let them pass. Conduct your day the same as your toothbrush test. They are the same thing and there is nothing more practical than being aware of what you are doing. I will leave you with some help from a very important man in my life. He is not with us anymore, but his works are abound.

"Straighten yourself up, look around you.
See what's there
See that person, see those people
Walk alertly and awakedly.
Don't dose
Don't dream
Don't wander around
Don't rush!

Read this once a day. It will help you rise above your fears. It will remind you of something higher you should be doing. As a spiritual student, it is time to stop taking orders from lower places."

Vernon Howard

Blessings, r

The Laws of Attraction

Here is a website I would encourage you to visit:

http://www.superwisdom.com/

but first, a poem.

I pray that I continue to challenge
any and all, large or small,
daily and internally,
things that make me fall.
To toast those stumblings.
To salute those bumblings,
and embrace the crashing of the wall.
Crash, crash, crash goes
a wandering mind,
so far from itself,
so far from it's truth.
In the rubble,
there it lies,
the wondering heart,
and lo the Absolute.

Blessings, r,