something to remember...

Suffering is a wonderful springboard when used rightly. Life, often times, makes us take breaks from what we are accustomed to. Sometimes pain is involved. Sometimes something appears to be lost or gone. These may be present, let us hope so. The farther down into the darkness we go the further we can be slung into the light. Funny thing, is that none of this is necessary, but it seems to be way more prevalent than not. This is life, in a loving way, reminding you that there is something higher you need to be doing. Find a good teacher who can show you how to look at yourself. You can become your greatest teacher. There have been many great men who have found it and led the way. Christ is a good one. Follow his teachings and then, make you own way. love, r

A Certain Trial

My only real purpose seems to be trying to keep my body and mind in the same place. I must let God take care of the rest of me and the rest of the world. love, r

When It Is Over...

...something magical will come about. I have come to an understanding of the apostle Paul's words.. "though we were sinners, Christ died for us". So I put it out there for you to see. "God, would you please save me again." I am like you, very critical and hypocritical. I have lived a lie to myself and continue to blunder in the dark. I thought that I had found truth and have found nothing, but my egotistical sneakiness and my longing despair. I have lived your lie too and now there is nowhere else to run. Oh, but you will conjure up another pleasant surprise for yourself, won't you? You think you can fool everyone, so take all the drugs you want, justify everything for your own good, create laws to keep and take, take and keep, but in the end, you must face your redemption. You must suffer the withdrawals of your choices. Oh, how I love you and humbly speak and express the pains of the heart. I know I am not it, never was and never will be, but the best of all is I don't need to be. I do not substantiate truth. Truth substantiates itself. If there is a way out, I know it is not that way, I have lied long enough. love, r